Thursday, April 19, 2007

11 month LID

Well here we are again, another LIDversary.Exciting things planned. It is my day off. I will be shortly going to sit in a doctors office with tons of sick people to get a prescription refill, where I will then make another appointment so that I can actually get in to see the doctor at a reasonable time when I get sick from the germs found while waiting in his office for too long.

Cara is going to help clean up a friends house as their little baby girl has been really sick and hospitalized for the last couple of weeks. She then has a craft party to teach at.

I am warming up leftovers for supper.Break out the party hats and streamers :)

We cleaned behind the washer and dryer at our house and I fought with the dryers vent tubing for 15 minutes to try to get it to stay on vent extensions that the house builder cut off WAAAAAY too short. Only banged my head on the shelving once. Party on!

I think the hilight of the day will be killing the Ruppie monster on the Neopets Playstation game I just bought the other day.Food, festivities and games, this is a rockin party...

Oh, it started to snow again, heh, I am okay with that, I raked the front lawn yesterday and put down some fertilizer, so this will save me money, I won't have to water it in and pay for that on the water bill, GIFTS at this party too! WOW!

The hedge took a beating over the winter, not sure if it was from the tons of snow or the neighbor girl running over the hedge with her boots when it was covered with snow, but a bunch of busted off branches, likely have to replace 3 or 4 of them. Perhaps I can salvage the broken ones and start training them as bonsai...this party even has challenges to it.

So I now wish my wife and myself a Happy 11th month LID! The month that had it all...except a referral...bummer way to end a party...ahh but what a party it will be when that referral finally comes...THAT will be THE BEST PARTY ever!

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

twenty things...

This is not new, seen it around, but since busy at work, and not in a mindset to blog yet, here is some other person's wise ramblings...

Twenty Things I Wish Adoptive Parents Knew
(an excerpt from the book by Sherri SHerrie Eldridge)

1. I suffered a profound loss before I was adopted. You are not

2. I need to be taught that I have special needs arising from
adoption loss, of which I need not be ashamed.

3. If I don't grieve my loss, my ability to receive love from you
and others will be hindered.

4. My unresolved grief may surface in anger toward you.

5. I need your help in grieving my loss. Teach me to get in touch
with my feelings about my adoption and then validate them.

6. Just because I don't talk about my birth family doesn't mean I
don't think about them.

7. I want you to take the initiative in opening conversations about
my birth family

8. I need to know the truth about my conception, birth, and family
history, no matter how painful the details my be.

9. I am afraid I was given away by my birth mother because I was a
bad baby. I need you to help me dump my toxic shame.

10. I am afraid you will abandon me.

11. I may appear more whole than I actually am. I need your help to
uncover the parts of myself that I keep hidden, so I can integrate
all the elements of my identity.

12. I need to gain a sense of personal power.

13. Please don't say I look or act just like you. I need you to
acknowledge and celebrate our differences.

14. Let me be my own person but don't let me cut myself off from

15. Please respect my privacy regarding my adoption. Don't tell
other people without my consent.

16. Birthdays may be difficult for me.

17. Not knowing my full medical history can be distressing at times.

18. I am afraid I will be too much for you to handle.

19. When I act out my fears in obnoxious ways, please hang in there
with me, and respond wisely

20. Even if I decide to search for my birth family, I will always
want you to be my parents.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Not even gonna mention

... that they only porcessed 2 days worth of dossiers...unreal... just can't go there...

so in random news...

Enjoyed anniversary number 5, that went well and was enjoyed by all :).

Enjoyed worshipping with our church family on Easter Sunday, it was nice not having anything to do for a change, so I could just sit and enjoy...that changes back to normal now, with me preaching the next 2 weeks while Bill is away(the senior Pastor). Got a good jump on it so I am hopeful this will be a kick butt productive week that allows me to not just catch up but get ahead on some things so I can focus on preparing for camp. Although the snow isn't gone yet, camp will be here WAAAAY too soon.

Enjoyed the first of the 2 Pretender movies, will watch the second one maybe this week.

On Sunday I was holding an 8 month old little asian/canadian baby, from a family in our church and had 2 people come up thinking we had gotten Julia already...I like the fact that I am told I look good holding and Asian baby...DON"T like the fact, it isn't ours for some time to go yet :(. Even though the wait time *IS* getting to me at times, there is no way I could see turning back, or pursuing another avenue for adoption. It was reassuring to read in another couples blog what I have been telling myself, that when the wait is finally over and we have Julia, that all the holidays and times when you feel like it is "another holiday without her" those times magically disappear. Can't wait for that magic trick :)

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

What's up...

Time is flying, can't beleive we are into April already, it is nice that since "the wait" is such a wait that the rest of life seems to be flying by, it is also scary. Cara mentioned to me she is filling her schedule with extra business parties etc to keep her mind off the wait, which is helpful for her. Me, on the other hand, am simply busy and thinking, "when can I make a break come in here", I WILL not be this busy when Julia comes along, come hell or high water, I don't know what has to change, but something will. I won't look back on her child hood and go"when did she suddenly grow up?"

Speaking of growing up, my mom has her B-day today, sucks we can't be there to celebrate with her in person, but Happy Birthday Mummy :)

Had another gospel magic show at a church last night.Had something happen to me that has never happened in 15 years of performing, I do a routine where I explain the Gospel and how there is punishment for our sin, but that Jesus takes it away, and have a wrist chopper,which I call a guilt detector tester, which cuts stuff, but I say when a person has a belief in Jesus HE takes their guilt and sin so they can't be hurt by it.

I put the kids wrist in it, slam it down, and SURPRIZE, no damage. Well, I have done this trick literally hundreds of times, but last night, the kid started crying before I did anything. I always whisper in their ear,"it is a trick, it won't hurt", but no go this time. NEVER had that happen before. One time I had the kid in the chopper and I sensed tension so I asked him quietly why he was nervous, he said" I have to go to the washroom,NOW!" So I let him out and he runs off the stage holding himself(he made it fortunately)

But back to last night, so I let this 11 year old go back to her seat, and she sends up her 4 year old baby brother instead! I am thinking this is gonna be a lost cause and should just scrap it, but away we went, and the little guy did awesome. Performing is unpredictable, makes it a challenge but I love it.

Easter is just upon us, as is my(our) 5th year anniversary,so lots of good stuff ahead in the next few days...