Sigh.... there is like 7 months worth of referrals that still need to be done, as matches were just done for Oct 22 2005. I have been holding onto the hope that by late Fall 2007 we could be heading to China, that doesn't seem likely, it would mean processing a month of files per month, and that just hasn't been happening. I really don't know how my heart will process starting 2008 without Julia, I just can't imagine it, don't want to.
After reading through the blogs of folks who had just gotten their referrals, I went to bed over the weekend and had such a vivid dream where Julia was home and I was holding her, it was insane. I knew I was dreaming, I was aware it wasn't real, yet I could feel her hugging me, I could feel the way she felt in my arms, her hair brushing against my cheek...it was so vivid. Needless to say, it sucked to know it wasn't real.
In baby room news...Cara found a crib set, bumper pad, and wall border set that has now set in place the colors we will need to have to paint the room. So that will be something in the near future to work on.
Had the kids from my church run the church service on Sunday. Went really well. It is awesome to see kids serving and worshipping God. Very encouraging...one day it will be extra delightful to have Julia in there...